Sunday, December 12, 2010

Do You Know Me?

My thoughts are splintered as I think about friends and life experiences.  My husband took himself off the road for medical reasons a year and a half ago.  Unfortunately that cut our income in half.  I feel isolated as I try to figure out the money issues.  I know he is suffering and until a few months ago did not even have a diagnosis. – We found out that he has herniated disks in his lower lumbar region. 

I am always humbled when I read “Living in the Shadows of Alzheimer’s”  She writes from the heart.  She uses words to paint vignettes of dark despair and love.  I remember those days.  I am so glad for the increase in resources and the internet support groups that now exist.  I wish I had reached out more when I was in the eye of the storm.

Yesterday I was at a technology class.  One of the ladies facilitating the class has been a colleague for many years.  She is a librarian at a different school.  I asked her if she had read my blogs?  She said yes my favorite is Windows 2 My Life.  “They were really funny, I was surprised.” Her comment made me laugh.

I smiled and said “You didn’t know I had a sense of humor.”

“No, I didn’t – but you do!”

How often we work and live with people yet never make deep connections.  People only see pieces of who we are.  A lot like the photos that show a small piece of a bigger picture.

Maybe that’s why I feel so fragmented.


Anonymous said...

Thank you for your post and for sharing some of the pain you are feeling.
I connected to your comment about how little we know about people we see every day! I was thinking about that as I drove home today, contemplating how to express my sentiments for the holiday season to people I really don't know well and yet I care about them.

Benjamin said...

Knowing oneself allows us to move past the facade we tend to throw up around people, thanks to our ego. When you know yourself well, you can get to know others on a deeper level.

Doreen said...

It is fascinating to me how we spend so much time with other people and never really know who they are. We all move so very fast these days.
I'm enjoying your writing I work with Alzheimer's patients everyday and I myself deal with those very painful lower back and neck issues. I will say some prayers for you and your husband.

Pet care said...

Thanks for sharing your feeling with us.

Sheri said...

Thank you Ruth, it was very sweet of you to mention my blog on your site. Take care.. Sheri

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